I thought friends were people you could trust and be yourself around. Not those who talk behind your back and make fun of when they think you wont find out. I need to reconsider who my friends really are. Words cannot describe how angry I am right now.
I realized at this point in my life I’m nowhere where I want to be. I don’t want to be that guy anymore who talks about how crazy the night before was because he was so hammered, or how much of a shit show everything was. I’m not saying I don’t want to go out and have a good time, that’s completely unrealistic. I want to be a guy who tells people stories about how awesome their weekend was because I went rock climbing, hiking, went on a bike ride; did a photoshoot, hung out with friends and went on a crazy adventure; not the guy who comes into work hating life the next day because he’s so hung over from the night before. I feel like some people may have lost some respect in me, seeing me now as someone who struggles through the day just waiting to go out again, and that’s not who I want to be seen as. I’m going to treat this trip to Vegas as wake up call that I need to focus on school and my actual interests, rather than the crazy partying 21 year old. It’s one thing to have a good time with friends, but it something completely different when it starts affecting you at work, your relationships, and most importantly school. Looking at things now, I realize how unhappy I’ve been for a while, and I feel like I’ve been filling this void of self appreciation and satisfaction with drinking. I know things will start looking up as soon as I find that sense of accomplishment.
German photographer Florian Imgrund acquired his first film camera in the summer of 2010 and has made incredibly good use of it since. All of his double exposure work is done completely in camera without the use of photoshop, and often merges human forms with the natural landscape. You can see much more of Florian’s work on Flickr and you can follow him on Facebook. (by Christopher)